Sunday, February 26, 2012

Thinking, and Giving Away Books in Paper and in Kindle

  •   I think a lot, as I face the fact that this stage of my life has to change, and I really don't want it too, I had spent so long trying to get pregnant, and to adopt, and I loved being a mom to little kids, but when I adopted and found out I was pregnant too, it meant that they both were grown together, and after graduation in June, my husband and I will find ourselves rattling around in a much emptier house.
       It has been as a stay at home mom/writer/1/2 time substitute teacher that I defined myself, but suddenly the stay at home part is me alone while the husband and boys are out and about. At first that was a rare treat, but now it's a rut. I think I'm trying to test out my thoughts on getting back into full time teaching after 13 years away, or full time in a different job. The writing is fun, but not a money maker, some months I make as much as one day subbing, but not usually. You know, I'm depressed because the one choice I'd make in a heartbeat is to rewind time and relive the last 18, wonderful years, and I feel like I've fulfilled my goals but don't have new ones yet.
     Remember your blessings, and I'll remember mine. Hey, if you are interested in something to read, there is a free book giveaway on St. Patricks day that you can sign up for anytime before that, and one of the choices is mine.
    So Breathe, remember it is a beautiful world.  Have a Happy Sunday,
  • Yesterday was my day of rest so except the normal firewood hauling, I did not work out. But then there was Jonathan's message this morning, if you took Saturday off, make sure you get in a work out today. I swear he knows my mind :)

    Last night was bitterly cold, so the wood stove didn't really keep the house warm, and I woke up at 4:30 with my nose feeling frozen from being out from under the covers, fortunately my grandma's old quilt had the rest of me toasty warm.
    I have leftover roast beef and potatoes, carrots and onion, and leftover marinara sauce and more veggies and that is my favorite way to start a big kettle of minestrone soup, and this is sure soup weather.
    At work, I have my books on kindle on sale so For the next 5 days, my second book, Duffy Barkley: Seek Well will be free on the kindle at
    and the first book on kindle is always only 99 cents
    and at school we had the funnest time on friday, there had been a contest in a k-8 school to see which class could log the most minutes reading. The second grade won, so the principal gave each second grader a can of silly string, then he climbed on the stage in front of them and allowed them to spray him, they were good aims and his whole face was covered and the fumes were thick but the laughter was thicker.
    So Good to hear kids laugh.


  1. You know I'm with you on this, D. What is next, indeed? Being a mom has been a privilege and a challenge and has absorbed the last almost nineteen years of my life, but now what? More will be revealed....

  2. I am right there with you. I had one stay home all through college, but she graduated in December and is "finding herself" and defining her adulthood (while still living at home) which has been interesting. The other went away to college right after high school. I started teaching full time while they were in high school, and now that's pretty much my life. It's where most of my friends are and where I spend my free time (basketball games, concerts, etc.). It does feel like the "me" part is missing at times and I have to remind myself that this is the "me" that is right now. I like my job, I enjoy most of the kids (even though I teach mostly freshmen), and I have made some really great friends. It is, however, very strange to have the "mom" piece be on an "as rarely needed" basis rather than a "daily needed" basis. Just remember, you can try something and if it doesn't feel like it's the right thing, you can do something else!

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